to be honest, i'd been tired. no matter how much i slept, i was always tired. and i dont remember. i think i inhaled too much of cyclohexane from that beta-carotene. it is scary. especially when you know that the environment that you're working now is health hazardous and unsafe.

and to be honest again, im sick and tired of whats happening at home recently. it wasnt as though i had the worst family in the world. its just that we're such a strange mix of people. huge clashes of personalites that led to arguments in the most unappropriate times. i pucker up and had this "heavy discussions" with mum. like finally. the realisation hit her when i told her of the situation.

"what for you wana study when u have no money, whats a diploma for when u can actually earn more at other places, takkan nak support the kids every month, is there a need to buy big cars when ure actually depending on others..." i have no idea why is it that you know when things is actually wrong here and the whole family just kept mum. "takpelah dia kan susah". yah thats the only sentence i hear, day in and day out.

but when money matters arise, "kau tgk lah, dia tak nih tak tuh..." im not trying to make the matters worse. i may be the youngest but i am not a kid anymore mom. theres a saying, "sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit". and i dont think that by living together and renting out this place is a good solution either. oh common, think ahead. maybe hire a maid and sell that car better what. gggggggRRRRRRRRRRRR!

you wouldnt know how terok i am now, constantly condemned.

only HE knows. please, answer my prayers.

ive SLIMMED!!

(i wish.)

to be honest, i'd been tired. no matter how much i slept, i was always tired. and i dont remember. i think i inhaled too much of cyclohexane from that beta-carotene. it is scary. especially when you know that the environment that you're working now is health hazardous and unsafe.

and to be honest again, im sick and tired of whats happening at home recently. it wasnt as though i had the worst family in the world. its just that we're such a strange mix of people. huge clashes of personalites that led to arguments in the most unappropriate times. i pucker up and had this "heavy discussions" with mum. like finally. the realisation hit her when i told her of the situation.

"what for you wana study when u have no money, whats a diploma for when u can actually earn more at other places, takkan nak support the kids every month, is there a need to buy big cars when ure actually depending on others..." i have no idea why is it that you know when things is actually wrong here and the whole family just kept mum. "takpelah dia kan susah". yah thats the only sentence i hear, day in and day out.

but when money matters arise, "kau tgk lah, dia tak nih tak tuh..." im not trying to make the matters worse. i may be the youngest but i am not a kid anymore mom. theres a saying, "sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit". and i dont think that by living together and renting out this place is a good solution either. oh common, think ahead. maybe hire a maid and sell that car better what. gggggggRRRRRRRRRRRR!

you wouldnt know how terok i am now, constantly condemned.

only HE knows. please, answer my prayers.

ive SLIMMED!!

(i wish.)